An empty heart?...

Empty.... Everything is so empty... 

How could i possible lost hope in myself? I keep telling lies... to make me feel better. 

"Tomorrow is still not written things can still change" 

Still i don't believe in it. 

Sometimes i just want to throw everythin away and fly away... But i'm to weak and afraid to do that! 

that's why... I'll try to make on step at time.... little step....carefully trying... if i fall..... i'll try to get up...

Even thought... I've been waiting to long for someone to come rescue me.... But that is just me hoping for something  ^^

The rainbow is pretty, no it's you who are prettier..

こんばんわ!!! 

 

"How are you doing? 

I could say that, but time sure has passed hasn’t it?

  But I’ve betrayed you so many times

I just say from my heart that I’m sorry
I just finally realized.

That day I threw away absolutely everything and set off
If I let myself remember, at that time

Frustratingly not knowing what I could and couldn’t do
The reality that my parent’s dream for me
And my own dream did not intersect"

 久しぶり!!! 

お元気ですか?

La me myself is fine fine (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

Hmmmm.... What to say? ... Ummm... AAAA!! 

I bleached my hair!!
(●´∀｀●) 

 It's now like a orange, yellow color i guess... Well... Picture will come soon laaa~   (▰˘◡˘▰)   

Also i had an english assignment which i'm already done with! (。⌒∇⌒)。

 そして!! 

I got a C almost a B Ngek ngek!!  

＼（★´−｀）人（´▽｀★）／ 

Mmmm... So what more? .... 

I've been watching alot of Japanese Dorama.... 

This is the list and i really recommend this to chuuu babyy!! (╯3╰)

• Gokusen 1,2,3 + Movie
• Misaki No.1
• Scrap Teacher
• Sensei wa erai
• Nobuta wo produce
• Shiritsu bakaleya koukou
• Risuo no musuko 
• Yamato Nadeshiko shichi Henge
• Mei-chan no shitsuji 
• Delicious gakuin
• Takumi-kun Soshite Harukaze Ni Sasayaite, Niji iro no glass
• Kimi wa petto
• Atashichi no danshi

  Hidarime Tantei EYE

   
  Well that is all i guess for now... and right now i'm watching Koishite Akuma sooo...mmm... BAii baiii  
   (〃⌒▽⌒)八(〃⌒▽⌒〃)八(⌒▽⌒〃) 
  
  
  "One season has passed, Hasn't it? 
  And another season is just beginning"
   

정말!? 진짜!?

정말!? 진짜!?

Like 정말?! 

That thing was ages ago! Why does she still put this up?! I really feel bad for her -.-*

I Mean  ทำไมจึงงี่เง่า!? 

 ถ้าคุณไม่ชอบฉันอย่าเขียนเกี่ยวกับฉัน!

 ばか！ばか！ばか！ばか!!!!

  (ﾉ °益°)ﾉ 彡 ┻━┻

Why is this person making me going insane!!!!! 

けど...
私は彼女の友人であった...

 실수는 실수입니다~
(*￣･￣)

けど!!! 

I have homewooooork!!~
(；￣Д￣） So not funny at all! 

Spanish homework : 

*A picture of a room* 

Esta es mi dormitorio.

A La izquierda de la puerta de la balcon hay un escriotrio.

Delante del escritorio hay una silla.

Encima del escritorio hay una cómoda, A la izquierda de la puerta está mi cama.    

 

 Hope you understand that i tried my best!

 <(￣︶￣)> I'm really proud! Estoy muy orgulloso! 정말 자랑 스럽다! 私は本当に誇りに思っている! 

and then also Science homework...ヾ(￣□￣;)ﾉ

 Writing about NASA, Apollo-project, first person one the moon and argu about WHY i used this link and such o(╥﹏╥)o

I suck at this... and then we have Science test about the planets, and the math test last friday was AWFUL! 私は怖いと感じる...  (#／。＼#)

English homework is writing about Finland...  ╮(─▽─)╭It was easy... Beside i just relised that i need to write 150 words and not 50... He!(一。一;;）

 Today... At school... I throwed a guy friends book on the ground because i needed to win sometime! Me and my friend's was like 

  ＼（★´−｀）人（´▽｀★）／

 And then he stood behind me because one of his friend told him to do it and i stamped himn on his feet! Wwwww ~ 

But... I'm afraid of one day if i still do like this he won't care about me anymore...  

.・゜゜・（／。＼）・゜゜・．

 Enough about that! I'm still alive and now i think i've made my mind clear!

 ∑(O_O；)

 Iiiiiiiek! I almost forgot! I've watched Gokusen!! All the seasons!! You should also watch ittt! XD and 20 January is Aoi's and Rui's birthday ne? I wish them Happy birthday before then! XD

 AA mmm! Well I think i'll just end this post here!

 バイバイ!! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

Niji - Rainbow

Niji -Rainbow- New year! 

 Mmm... So... It's new year soon ne? Mmm... lost of stuff have happend... Mmm... Today i- no this week i was crying my eyes is hurting ^^ 

I've been watching Gokusen to say good bye for this year! and sometimes i just break down crying about it... You should watch it ne! Mm... So... Mmm... I'm just... Happy ^^ abit. 

Ah! Niji by Aqua Timez is the theme song for Gokusen season 3! It reached my heart so it actually hurt! and Feel you breeze is the theme song for Gokusen season 1! These two... I really like it!

mmm... I also like season 2! mmm.... 

Aren't i saying "mmm..." many times now? ^^ hehe... Mmm... 

Next year will be okay! 

Niji - Aqua Timez eng sub:

Credits:
English Translation by Mognet-Japanese Translation Group

It's alright, if you look up it's already there
It's alright, look, it's a rainbow bridge
We can finally laugh beneath the same sky

When I retie my shoelaces, the wind presses at our backs
Let's draw out the continuation to that dream, beyond the light that the sky spills down
The left part of my chest pounds fast, expectations and anxiety beating out my pulse
I wonder if it will really be alright? I wonder if we'll be able to overcome everything?

It's alright, if you look up it's already there
It's alright, look, it's a rainbow bridge
When you stop crying, it spans the sky
Hey, you can see it right? Way over there
I can see it too, just the same as you
Our two skies will now become one
We can finally laugh beneath the same sky

We were born with our own separate skies, skies that project our memories
You have your own story, and tears that I know nothing of
You may have been trying when I laughed
There are happiness's that are similar, but there's definitely no sadness's that are alike

Adding a border to the future with "a promise", I decorate with words
You certainly were wanting a certain tomorrow more than anyone else

Like one of the changing seasons
Sad times remain sad
Don't hurry happiness along
It's alright, I'm right here
It's alright, I'm not going anywhere
When I start running again, I'll be with you

"Will that bridge span out in a world without tears?"
Graffiti carved into a wall really resembled someone's writing
Keeping sadness at a distance, you tried to it with a bridge
But now I throw aside my umbrella and close my eyes

It's alright

It's alright, if you look up it's already there
It's alright, look, it's a rainbow bridge
In the sky of you, who is done crying
Hey, you can see it right? In such vivid colors
I can see it too, just the same as you
A rainbow called "a bond" has spanned across the sky
And
Our two skies will finally, finally become one
And make us run again
 

 HAPPY NEW YEAR YOU PEOPLE! 

HAVE GOOD HEALT AND TAKE CARE!

 KEEP DREAMING AND CHERIS THEM AND NEVER GIVE UP! FIGHT OH! OH~

 

 

 

 

 

 

December 2: Day two

"Why do memories look so bright? My heart is trembling so much, I can't barely smile"

You know... Sometimes when you look back to the memories you have kept close to yourself... They somehow seems so bright... And then you ask yourself... "What happend?" ... I don't know but... Everytime is see them i always wonder what happend that made this and that look so... bright... But now... everything is so dark... 

Did we do anything wrong? Did we made each other hurt? Did we just beging stupid?

I Don't know anymore (゜´Д｀゜) 

But... I think there is some kind of wall between me and my feelings... Feelings i should feel and feelings i've forget....  ||＼(；￢_￢

Mmm...See you tomorrow! 

 (*⌒∇⌒*)ﾉ

December 1: Day one

"Standing still in winter"

So i was thinking about bloging everyday untill the 31 of December with a meaning everyday ^-^

Today is "Standing still in Winter" You know Shunkashuutou by Alice Nine? yeah! xD "fuyu ni tachi tsukusu" That meaning! Yesh! XD I mean the song really make me think of myself somehow... ._. 

Well... I REmember in my old school most time of the winter i stood still outside the door most of the time... I don't actually know why i stood still but ^-^ I think i was lost... so lost that walking around was hard...Even though i ran around sometimes with my friend. 

I Remember that in winter to spring... There was so much fight between me and my friends p(´⌒｀｡q)

But nowdays i feel lots better... Oh well!! What will you do for christmas? I'm going to spend time with my family! xD or just mom~ (☆´3｀) 

See you tomorrow! 

＼（＠￣∇￣＠）／

Alice The killer

Alice The Killer:

A cold summer night in Tokyo, a girl named Shiroyama Mai was walking down the street. She was a normal high school girl who had her whole life infront of her.

Now you may wonder "Why the hell is she walking in the night alone?!" Well atleast if i was reading this...

Well she was walking home alone after meeting up with some friends from her class. She was only a few block from her home when she saw a dark shadow in front of her, then everything went dark. Unconscious like she was, she couldn't help herself.

The "Alice" Killer was sewing a daimond on her head. "Beautiful like she is, a diamond on her head is a suitable thing"
The "Alice" killer took Mai's unconscious body and started to dress her in a princess likedress
"To the queens castle she walked her way throw woods and sea, a beautiful creature like her even a beautiful rose can't be beside her."
He drag her through the wood, blood from her head was creating a path of blood. Mai's mother was worried about Mai not coming home and called Mai's dad Mr.Yuu. 
"Hai?" 
"I'm worried Mai isn't home yet what should I do?" 
"She isn't home yet? Can you call her? I'll be home in 20 minuts"
On his way home (<-- Mr.Yuu)he saw a bloody path and wonder why it was so much blood, the blood path was to his home he walked untill he ended up infront of his door where he's shocked wife was standing and there daughter's bloody body were laying on the ground.
"Deadly yet so beautiful"
"the door bell rang and i walked out seeing this!" Mai's mother said crying.
"Have you called the police yet?" with a shaking voice Mr.Yuu said.
"Yes I already called the police, they are coming soon."
That was the first murder the "Alice" killer did... But not the last.

A Dark shadow stood in the corner and grined a bloody smile. The police found no DNA, or anything that could tell who is the killer.


A Rainy day in fall, a pregnent woman was walking her way back from the hospital only a few block away. Her husband was at work glad as he was he would be a dad in less then 1 month. He was so nervous if she would be into lable when he was on work. He is a bussiness man, he was on a meeting when the call came.
"Hai?"
"Is this Mr.Kazuki?"
"Yes?..."
"Your wife is dead. Please come see if it's really your wife."
Mr.Kazuki droped his phone and ran to the place they found his wife body.
The crime scene:
When Mr.Kazuki came he saw his wife body all blody and a dead child. It was hard to see who it was but he was 110% sure that it was his wife. Her body was stabbed with a sword,