9/25/2013

Deperat? No!

....

Now.. When i look at my old post.. besides that i think it's pretty weird, bad grammar (which hasn't really changed) i think it is pretty mcuh really desperate.

i wonder why at that time i was so desperate? i think i thought i was lonley? 

probably... but now it's not like that... i think because that even thught the relathionship is fake... even thought it's fake i'm okay with it... it doesn't have to be real as long as it is funny.

it's like lying to yourself. 

well it couldn't be helped... I was a kid back then... I didn't think further then me as an induvidual (spelling?) person. I think now i just see things from a wider point of view.

Even thought through a day, a month, a year or a decade even if it's fake... i'm okay... that makes it pretty mcuh easier to say good bye right?

 

9/14/2013

私は一人になりたい....

あいされたい...

君は私にとっても特別です...

 八方美人は美人でない。

起死回生...

 馬鹿は死ななきゃ治らない。

君守りたいだから...

井の中の蛙大海を知らず。

 逢いたくて。。。今、逢いたくて...


“They say that there are two types of happiness. One is a happiness that you realize after the fact and the other is a happiness you feel in the moment. That happiness you feel in the moment is so precious that they say that the memories of this kind of happiness can stay with you and enlighten your life. Maybe we’ll go on remembering this moment today, like that kind of happiness… that we can remember for the rest of our lives, the moment when we shined.”  - jin-gook

“School is boring and dull, but I go here to learn to be a proper adult.” – Jun
 "even if it is like that, i still want to stay here. because this is the place WHERE I AM"

 助けて....

9/09/2013

A Promise to Keep & A life to Live

"Live your life with no regret!
A Promise to keep and a life to live. The two friend's come-back and a challenge!"
*Present*
The first of April, The sakura blossom is in bloom.
"Midori High 55th Opening ceremony"
the student's walked in to the large school building, beside a girl who were standing out side the big gate, and a boy who sat on the riverside.
The girl was about to turn around when she heard someone yell out
"Oh Crap! I'm late on the first day... AGAIN! Principal will be really mad at me again! Ah! You! Hurry up and go in to the school!" The teacher pointed out to the girl who only looked at him with a If-you-call-me-one-more-time-i-will-kill-you face and walked away. The teacher ran after her and tapped her shoulder.
"You Wear our school uniform so you must be our student right?" The Girl turned around and and smiled a half-hearted smile.
"Pardon me Sensei, but won't you be late if you don't hurry up?"
"Oh Crap! Just like you said! Thank you! Don't be late yourself ne?! See you in school!" The teacher then ran in to the big school building.
*Girls POV*

Stupid people will always remain stupid. But that teacher.. *smiles* Was actually abit fun...
I walked along the riverside when i remembered,
"My Diary!"I covered my mouth and took out a little white book with purple flowers and wrote.
"Dear Daichi and Haruo
Today is the first of April... I just started high school... I only stood infront of the gate, but i met a really strange teacher he ran to school almost late and then he still had time to run over to me and then ask me if i'm one of there student's just because i was wearing there school uniforms. It was really fun but yes of course i didn't laugh... But i don't think he is diffrent from other adult's and teacher...

Ne... What would we be doing right now if you didn't die... Daichi? Would we keep in touch? Would i ever be this depressed?... Thinking of it, me and Haruo haven't been keeping in touch for a veery veery long time!
7 years has passed hasn't it? Since you died...I Wonder what Haruo is doing now? I wonder if he is writing the diary just like he promised to do?
This is all for now...
Takaki Akiharu."
I continued walking untill i passed a guy who were sitting on a bench and sleept... I giggled abit because he was drooling and had a porn magazine on his lap.
He is having a naughty dream isn't he? I continued walking... AGAIN when i thought he looks familiar... haruo... i smirked and continued walking.


*The Guys POV*
I felt someone coming near me... i Heard a girl giggle it sounded somehow cute but familiar and..
Wake's up*
"Eh?"
I looked around but saw no one i took out my black colored diary and wrote:
"Dear Daichi and AkiHaru
This is the 1/4... Again school is starting and i just realized that i'm becoming an high school student... Funny isn't it? Akiharu is born the 11 of march... and are one year younger then us but still she is attending high school today too... It's great ne... Begin born before the 1 of april. I'm born the 20 of April and you the 24th of december... I think Akiharu must be lonely right now...
You know Daichi... I regret alot i didn't told her what i feel... Aki-chan... But you know? I've been trying to date so many girl's but i never forgot Akiharu...
If You Were here you would smile and say "Isn't it like i told you? Huh? Say that i was right!" ne? .... To bad you aren't here....
Yamada Haruo."
I looked at my watch and sighed. I'm going to go to the attendence? i nodded and stood up walking to the school...
I looked at the board of name and save a name i never thought i would see again...
"Takaki... Akiharu....?... 1-D... ?!"
I looked up to the sky and whispered "Daichi... Look at me ne? I'm gonna confess my feelings no matter what!"
Yosh! I walked in to the main school building.
*In The ClassRoom"
"Hai! Everybody! I'm Takasugi Takeru! I'll be your homeroom teacher this year! Let's be friends ne?" Everyone smiled and nodded..
"Such a good class ne... " The teacher thought to himself.
"Well Now i will take attendance and then we will pass out the book's okay?"
"Hai!" The class said in chorus.
"Let's see... Kawashima Atsuko?"
"Hai! Kawashima Atsuko desu! *bows* This year let's be good friend's ne? *winks*" Every guy in the class stared at her angelic face and drooled.
"Hai... Next... Takaki Akiharu... Eh? She is not here?" The teacher looked over the class everyone were whispering.
"Next Koyama Kato?"
"Hai! Koyama Kato Desu! Please take care of me!" Kato smiled a heartmelting smile
"Then next... Yamada Haru-" when a *Bang!*sound came

The door opened up and Everyone were staring at the orange bleached hair guy who licked the side of his mouth making the girl's go "Kyaaaaa~!"
"Who of you are Takaki Akiharu?" He said searching for his love. But no answer were found.
"Kimi wa...da-"
"I'm Yamada Haruo! Nice to meet you... umm... Classmate?" He throwed his bag on the seat first row in the front beside the window and said
"That seat is mine NO ONE can touch it! Understood?" Everyone nodded abit scared.
"Sensei pass me the book's... There is nothing intresting going on today!... So i will leave... NOW!"
Takasugi-Sensei nodded and gave him the book's and was shaking like a scaredy-cat.
" Thank you teacher... "He turned around and walked out.
Everyone where whispering about him some girl's said he is "ikimen" and some says "kakkoii"

After that day Haruo didn't show up. Akiharu never even showed up in the school.
A Week had past and Haruo is entering class after begin absent for a week. He came late and leaved not long after. When he was about to leave Kato Stood up and asked
"Are you going to leave? Coming and going like this who do you think you are? Huh? Just drop out of school if you don't want to come here! Don't cause trouble for other's!"
"Did i make any noise's? I didn't do anything yet you are talking bad about me? Even thought i want to... But there is one person who i still need to meet.. In this class... " Kato stood there shocked and Haruo leaved.
Atsuko Looked side-ways at Kato and smiled.


A month had passed and Haruo is coming and going as he want, but one day. On the 20 of may (Monday)
A girl were standing in the front gate of the school and sighed...
"YOsh... Let's enter class..." She took a step in. Because she was really early no one saw her. She got to the teacher's room apologizing that she haven't come for a month duo some family problem.
The teacher's showed her their classrooms and when she entered her homeroom. She took the sit in the front row beside the window... Then she fell asleep.

Everyone entered the classroom seeing someone sleeping on Haruo's desk knowing if he sees her he will get mad. But the strange thing is they have never seen this girl. Atsuko and Kato walked over to her, atsuko tapped her shoulder. The girl looked up at atsuko with sleepy eyes, her purple dyed hair was covering her left eye. her hair was long to her back and tied losely at the end,
"May i ask who you are?" Atsuko said smiling
"You don't need to use "may i ask" when you already asked me a question" the girl said grining. She putted her head down on the desk.
Atsuko turned around and said loud "First Haruo and now her!"
The girl looked up to a smiling guy.
"I'm Koyama Kato! Nice to meet you!" She nodded and said
"Ne,,, Who is this haruo guy that girl was talking about?"
"AH! He? He is umm.... Yamada Haruo! He was really strange, he comes and goes whenever he wants and his hair is dyed in an orange colour... Why?"
"No.... It's nothing... Thank you!" The girl smiled and fell asleep.
When everyone else entered the room Haruo saw the girl sitting on his desk, he was rushing toward's her and grabbed her collar she opened her left eye and smirked... saying:
"What do you think you are doing?" She looked at him. He stood there shocked...
"A-a-a-..... AKIHARU?!?" He screamed out making everyone looking at him.
"Yo! Sashiburi... Haruo-kun!" She smiled
" Is it okay for me to sit here?"
Haruo looked at her and nodded " but you don't like sun... is it alright for you to sit there?"
"I'll be fine!" Akiharu nodded and Haruo let go of her collar.
"Okay Class will be starting now!" Takasugi-sensei came in and smiled at the student's.
"Next week we will have a test coming up to see how much you have learnt durin this month. It's nothing serious. We are going to have it on monday

9/05/2013

さしぶり~

さしぶりねみんな!!
私はげんきです

みんな元気ですか?

La me haven't post anything だよね?~

summerholiday already over そして my school life start again!!

今日は面倒くさいです~ We got a new classmate too ╮(─▽─)╭ He... Lets Call him F-kun. He is from Malmö and he is a だめ person. I had a conversation with him but from that i knew he was a big うそつき!!! 

But besides that everythin is good! 

でも一年D組が面倒くさいです

 やああ!また明日!!!!