December 2: Day two

"Why do memories look so bright? My heart is trembling so much, I can't barely smile"

You know... Sometimes when you look back to the memories you have kept close to yourself... They somehow seems so bright... And then you ask yourself... "What happend?" ... I don't know but... Everytime is see them i always wonder what happend that made this and that look so... bright... But now... everything is so dark... 

Did we do anything wrong? Did we made each other hurt? Did we just beging stupid?

I Don't know anymore (゜´Д｀゜) 

But... I think there is some kind of wall between me and my feelings... Feelings i should feel and feelings i've forget....  ||＼(；￢_￢

Mmm...See you tomorrow! 

 (*⌒∇⌒*)ﾉ

December 1: Day one

"Standing still in winter"

So i was thinking about bloging everyday untill the 31 of December with a meaning everyday ^-^

Today is "Standing still in Winter" You know Shunkashuutou by Alice Nine? yeah! xD "fuyu ni tachi tsukusu" That meaning! Yesh! XD I mean the song really make me think of myself somehow... ._. 

Well... I REmember in my old school most time of the winter i stood still outside the door most of the time... I don't actually know why i stood still but ^-^ I think i was lost... so lost that walking around was hard...Even though i ran around sometimes with my friend. 

I Remember that in winter to spring... There was so much fight between me and my friends p(´⌒｀｡q)

But nowdays i feel lots better... Oh well!! What will you do for christmas? I'm going to spend time with my family! xD or just mom~ (☆´3｀) 

See you tomorrow! 

＼（＠￣∇￣＠）／

Alice The killer

Alice The Killer:

A cold summer night in Tokyo, a girl named Shiroyama Mai was walking down the street. She was a normal high school girl who had her whole life infront of her.

Now you may wonder "Why the hell is she walking in the night alone?!" Well atleast if i was reading this...

Well she was walking home alone after meeting up with some friends from her class. She was only a few block from her home when she saw a dark shadow in front of her, then everything went dark. Unconscious like she was, she couldn't help herself.

The "Alice" Killer was sewing a daimond on her head. "Beautiful like she is, a diamond on her head is a suitable thing"
The "Alice" killer took Mai's unconscious body and started to dress her in a princess likedress
"To the queens castle she walked her way throw woods and sea, a beautiful creature like her even a beautiful rose can't be beside her."
He drag her through the wood, blood from her head was creating a path of blood. Mai's mother was worried about Mai not coming home and called Mai's dad Mr.Yuu. 
"Hai?" 
"I'm worried Mai isn't home yet what should I do?" 
"She isn't home yet? Can you call her? I'll be home in 20 minuts"
On his way home (<-- Mr.Yuu)he saw a bloody path and wonder why it was so much blood, the blood path was to his home he walked untill he ended up infront of his door where he's shocked wife was standing and there daughter's bloody body were laying on the ground.
"Deadly yet so beautiful"
"the door bell rang and i walked out seeing this!" Mai's mother said crying.
"Have you called the police yet?" with a shaking voice Mr.Yuu said.
"Yes I already called the police, they are coming soon."
That was the first murder the "Alice" killer did... But not the last.

A Dark shadow stood in the corner and grined a bloody smile. The police found no DNA, or anything that could tell who is the killer.


A Rainy day in fall, a pregnent woman was walking her way back from the hospital only a few block away. Her husband was at work glad as he was he would be a dad in less then 1 month. He was so nervous if she would be into lable when he was on work. He is a bussiness man, he was on a meeting when the call came.
"Hai?"
"Is this Mr.Kazuki?"
"Yes?..."
"Your wife is dead. Please come see if it's really your wife."
Mr.Kazuki droped his phone and ran to the place they found his wife body.
The crime scene:
When Mr.Kazuki came he saw his wife body all blody and a dead child. It was hard to see who it was but he was 110% sure that it was his wife. Her body was stabbed with a sword,

Kai one shot "I'll be waiting for you"

"I'll wait for you"

Ami Kawamura a 25 years old university studen, she is Japanese but born in Canada, she speaks fluently englisha nd her Japanese isn't the best. She moved to Japan when she was 15 and She is in love with The GazettE's sweet drumer Kai.

A normall day at "American PanCake CoffeE" the cafe just open and Ami just entered in to the cafe... 

She like spend her time at this cafe, she also met the love of her life. Yes of cousre he didn't know that she is in love with him... He doesn't even know about her existans!

Well guess who he is... Kai the drumer from The GazettE! Like he would notice her! 

Her hair is long and her face is hiden under her bangs, she wears a sweater that is almost like a dress on her and some tight black jeans. Her Japanese isn't good because she was born in Canada and moved to Japan when she was 15 years old. 

Thinking back and forth she woke up from her thoughts when the waitresser said "As normall?" Ami answered back "yes as normall thanks" She looked out the window and saw him! There he was! Kai from The GazettE!

He was wearing sunglasses and quite casual clothes, he entered the door and sat on the usually place that he would take if he came there. 

a table from Ami... She sat there staring at Kai, when he noticed he looked her way and she blusshed looking down on her book. Kai smiled a shy smile and looked at her, she looked up and faced Kai who was smiling his killing smile. She blushed even brighter and he turned away his face to his mobile. he got a text from Ruki 

*Oii Kai I'm almost there what was the name of the cafe again?* 

Kai Laughed and replyed 

*American PanCake CoffeE, come fast!* 

Kai looked up again but Ami was gone. She already left because she was to shy to sit there. But one thing she forgot was her little book, Kai walked up to where hse was siting and took it up... He unfortnetly open it and saw what was standing there with red letters 

"When she leaned close to his lifeless body to give him a last kiss before-" 

He got a new message from Ruki 

*I'm there now, where are you?* 

Then Kai saw a little short guy walk in and he waved and said "Ruki!" The little short guy walked over to Kai and saw the book and ask "What's that in your hand?" 

Kai laughed and said "A book alittle shy girl left" 

Ruki looked wondering at Kai "A little shy girl?" 

Kai laughed and said "nothing, what you want to eat?"

Ruki just said "Whatever you take"

The next day the whole GazettE members was siting there at the cafe... But little Ami haven't come yet... Kai wondered where she was and then the waitress was no one else but the little shy girl Kai was looking for. 

She looked different. She had cut her hair short and dyed it honey brown, she showed her face more and her pale white skin was showing. "H-here is the menu" Little Ami gave all of them a menu. Ruki looked at Kai and to Ami. he smiled and said "Well.. Kai how was the book you found yesterday?" Kai remembered the book he found and picked it up from his pocket. "here is yours right? You forgot it yesterday" Ami looked at the book and took it and said a shyly "thanks" 

When Ami walked away she remembered that they didn't order anything so she got back and asked Kai "as normall? " and he nods and said "yes and for the others the same" Ami walked away and after awhile she came back with coffee and french toast.

The next day Kai came alone he order from Ami the same and then he asked her " Hey! Your name is Ami right? I'm Uke Yutaka but i guess you already know" He smiled Ami just nod and said "Yes my name is Ami and yes i know who you are..." Kai laughed because of the face Ami was making and said "Want to exchange nummber and go out sometimes?" Ami looked up and said "REally!? REally for real?! No joke?!" KAi laughed and nod "Yes for real... If you want of course!" Ami Jumped like a kid "yes yes yes yes! I woukl like to! " They exchanged number and the at night when Ami was ogin to sleep.

Ami got a text from Kai saying 

*The Book... Can i borrow it sometimes? and Let's Meet next week if you can! 

Good night sleep well!*

Ami readed it and she re-readed it over and over again. She answer 

*Yes of course whenever you want! and Next wekk! yeah i can what day? You to sleep well and take care!* The little Ami falled asleep with her phone in her hand.

Wonder how her life is going to be after this? Let's say she is going to have a great time with Kai ^^

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAIIIIII!! MAY HE HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY!! XD ALREADY 31 BUT STILL LOOK SOOO HOOOT   *-*

Someday

"Someday"

Someday, sometimes i feel so weak... That even standing seems so hard... 

Breathing seems so hard... Even talking was hard... Nothing was good... Everything was so dark..

But isn't life like this? I ask myself... I couldn't answer... Even moving forward was painful...

 Someday i look up to the sky and i even forget how to fly... I forgot how to dream... I even forgot my own dream... 

"Standing still in winter"  

Everytime i go to school... under the cold winter... I always stop and look around... 

"Spring that gently strokes the ear" 

When the srping times come it gently stroke my ear... Walking my way to school... dreams start to blossom again... Hope and new dreams start to come... It gently, gently strokes the ear... and let us have some hope.... 

"Summers warm breeze"

Summers warm breeze have such a wonderful feeling... everything have blossom out so beautiful... 

dreams and hope have blossom and people feel abit warm inside...

"Fall dyed the leaves colour" 

Fall when everything are getting darker... But sometimes it make us feel some weird warmth inside us... Dreams disappear and fall gently to the ground on a road way... 

 

If There wasn't a new tomorrow now i can speak my heart out... EVen my dream look so fun in others eyes i'll still try to make it come true! sometiems you feel so lonely but when you're there.. its should be beautiful...

"Searching for the answer in Winter"

If there was an answer for me how to walk... Go on the faster way... but have a chance to slip.. or take the other long but safe way...

 "New dreams come along the spring"

 The new dreams start to pop up on the trees around us... Nothing look the same anymore... 

"Dreamed that blossomed in Summer"

The new dreams that blossom in summer... Nothing feels the same... Something is gone... New dreams.. Old dreams... New hope... Old hope... 

"Searching and passiong around in autuum"

Searching for the answer in autuums dyed colour and trees... 

People walk around only thinking about themself and don't care if they are killing someone without even knowing it... 

"Kill me gently and forget me for me... There is nothing else left to me to believe" 

//Kenichi MiYuki

My School

My School

Haii haii~  It has been a loooong looong time haven't it?! XD 

I've been so buuusy with school so i forgot but now i have some DAMn time's to update! So...

here is some picture because i'm too lazy to write xD 

 I was on my way to school and thought "this look so beautiful!! " and i took a picture xD Ya like?!

I was on Religion lesson.. was kinda bored so XP

I need to run up stairs to spanish~ but still fuun~  xD

I was outside my Swedish classroom at friend time~ it was raining

inside my swedish classroom ~

I was on my way to school and took the picture~ xD

At "Hällen" with my class   ~ 

After eating lucnh our teacher gave us this XD

 This 3 shoes is sooo lovely ~ xD I really really like them~

And yesterday i also tried Visual kei hairstyle~

Front 

And here is the back ~

What ya think?!  Nice?! XD i dunno first time i actually try~

Well all from today!! (An cafe is baaack~ xD )

//MiYuki~

My life as 7th grader

Okay... As the title says... "My life as 7th grader"... Is... Awful!
There... I don't know how to say but one thing sure... It's awful...
Today i listening to Akb48's song Everyday Kachusha (Alice Band) and there was some word that really knocked me into tears...
"Taking off your Alice band
You suddenly turn around
You smile in the breeze
And for some reason I can’t say a word
Even though I love you so much...
You take off your Alice band
And let your long hair loose
You’ve grown up in no time at all
I feel like you’re out of my reach
I love you more
Everyday, everyday, everyday
Alice band girl"
and that really make me feel like runing back to my old school and cry... because i actually felt like that in the school end cermony... 
But in my new school... Not that i've leaved the past no... I've put the past in my little box with memories and are now doing new memories for my 3 years here! 

The good thing with starting a new school is about you are meeting new people from more places! xD 
Well.... Hmm.... I've actually been abit more mature actually... And it's scears the shit out of me... o.o
By the way! I dyed my hair brown~ xD 

And this is the colour i use~

Really good can i say! xD


and about stuff i'll do this week is 
Monday: Meet up with an old friend and buy a present for my Okaa-san! XD 
Tuesday: Meet up with a friend from internet that i've talked too~ and abit more stuff that you shouldn't know~ ;)
Wednesday: Nothing much i guess... or maybe... I don't know xD 
Thursday: I don't have something to do that day actually~ XD 
Friday: My momis birthdaaaay~ xD and Overworld have there concert in Sickla! XD  p3894gyntuhbtb jhgbDTNAEOYNjuh I'm sooo sooo Happy!! XD like it's near my town and ooo gosh~ XDD 
But i don't know if i can go because it's on my momis birthday...


Talking about Birthdays Tora From Alice Nine  and MiA From Mejibray!


誕生日おめでとう!!!!! Greeting from Sweden and Thailand!! 

Baiii Baiii Have a nice daaay~ XD

Happy Brithday Shin~

Happy Birthday to Shin from ViViD!!! Happy~ birthdaaaaaay~!! Shin-saaaaan~ Have a nice birthday Shin-san!!! xDD
Greetings from Sweden!!!

Japanese pop princess Atsuko Maeda to leave girl band AKB48 - What's On Shenzhen

Japanese pop princess Atsuko Maeda to leave girl band AKB48 - What's On Shenzhen

*sigh* Well... *shakes head* This isn't good... I like her so much~ But... Ugh~ *nods* As a fan i'll respect that... I gonna support her what ever she do! 

A Midwinter night story (Ghost story)

One mid winter night... A girl was going home after she was out with her friend.
She was walking her way home alone...
She heard some footstep behinde her.
She looked back.. There was nothing there.
She continued to walk her way home.
Then she saw a shadow behinde her and looked back quickly. Nothing, she saw nothing... And started to run home.

It takes more then 1 hour to come home from where she was.
 Still she felt like someone was following her... Then when she was going to turn around and look back again she heard a childs voice say
"Please... Please... Can big sister help me?... It's hot... I can't move"
The girl looked around but couldn't say where the voice came from...She continued her way home AGAIN.
She took some few step then... She saw a shadow a few corner away... She ran where she saw the shadow and she saw a little girl siting on the ground crying.
 The little girl keep repeting
"Just kill me, Just kill me... Better kill me... I want to go home... I want to go home..."
The little girl looked up at the woman and said...
" My name is... Yomi... What is Big sisters name?" "Oh! Little Yomi... I'm Haruna! What are you doing here in such a cold weather? Why don't you go home?" Haruna said and pat little Yomis head which was cold as ice..Little Yomi started to swing from left to right on and on again.

"There is no return for me... I don't have someone to come home too... There is no home for me... I can't  barely remember my own name..." Haruna looked worried at the girl.
"Hey! I'll let you sleep at my place today and tomorrow I'll take you to the police station! Okay?" Little Yomi looked up and smiled
"Really? Would you let me?" Haruna nod and said "Come" ... Little Yomi smiled and stood up.
"But there is one more place that i first want to show you. Come with me!" Haruna with no thinking followed Littel Yomi to an old container...
"What is this?" Haruna asked Littel Yomi who just stood there with out saying a singel word..

"Please... Please... Help me... I can't move... It's hot... I'm burning up... In this midwinter night... an unknown shadow was following me..." Haruna listend to Littel Yomi... And her hair started to raise everytime littel yomi said something...

"... They took me without even having a reason... No one can understand... To understand what i feel is impossible... They killed my voice without even thinking that i was young and weak... I wanted to show mom... How good i've started to be..."

 "Littel Yomi what happend to you?" Haruna said and looked at littel Yomi...
Who from the first didn't have any marks on her arms and legs...
"Momi... Was on hospital... She had cancer... She wouldn't survive... i was glad i could show her my grades... But they... Came from nowhere and started to... stab and how much i should scream, turn or cry... they wouldn't let me go... People know what happen... Even so... no one helpd me..."
 "Littel Yomi... Yomi... Yomi... Shirakawa Yomi?!?! The littel girl who died 1999?!" Haruna started to panic and took some step back...

Every step she took was the step that would decide if she would be alive or not...
If she could come home for dinner with her whole family? To feel the pain Littel Yomi had feel...
Then she heard some foot step behinde her... She turned around and saw some shadows come out from the corner...
"Oii~ Kazuki! Look at this girl... Want her?" An unknown voice and man was standing there...
Haruna was about to run away when littel Yomi Took her hand and said
"Haruna Come with me!! I'm all alone i want you to be with me!"

"I Can't stay with you! We are both from two diffrents world! I'm still alive and you're dead! I have a family to go home to!" haruna said trying to escap but little Yomi is to strong...
 "Oii~ You the girl who is standing there! Why are you ignoring us?
"I'm not ignoring but i'm facing something waaay sceary then you!" Haruna said and then from nowhere..

Everything went dark...
"I Told you... To come with me..." Littel Yomi said to Haruna and strocked Harunas hair gently...
"You know Haruna... You aren't dead yet.. They still want to let the guy Kazuki Rapes you first... If your lucky you'll die within 2 days... If not... Then poor you" Littel yomi dissaperd when the container door opend up..

"Here Kazuki-sama! This girl! What do you think? How should you rape her?" The same man who was talking before pointed at Haruna's lifeless body...
"Looks quite great... Who is she?"
 Haruna who has dissaperd for 7 hours started to move she opend her eyes a bit and the man with the name Kazuki Took her up by the hair...
"You bitch who are you" Kazuki said when Haruna Didn't answer he thorwed her like a doll and her head banged to the containers door...
"She does not seems like a strong person... Kazuki-sama..."
"Yeah i knoow... Not like the girl we raped 1999 Shirakawa Yomi right? Well She was alive in a whole month... She really did want to go home..." Haruna started to move but the man Kazuki dragged her deeper in the container and said "Burn her" Kazuki walked out and the other man took the ligther in and started to pour oil on the container floor and light the lighter and throwed it in and closed the door

1 month after that the police found the container where Haruna died... The killer... Still out there looking for a new offer... Yomi? Well... She exchanged place with Haruna... Next midwinter... A girl was walking home... She heard a vocie say... "help me"....

                                        "End"

One summer's day 3:

                                  One Summer's Day 3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GNmrFSfPElk&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9i8AZY8q8VU

"Nee... Hiko-chan... You know when we first met... I thought you was the most annyoing and foolish person that I've ever met. Funny isn't it? But you know what? After awhile i started to like you... 

I Miss you... Come home soon and take care of yourself while you are there!                     

                                                                  // Shirakawa Akane "

                                             

                                      One hot day in spring

                                             * Misaki Sakura's pov*

"Wake up... Sakura! Wake up! Wake up!! Breakfast is ready! When do you go to school? It's 06:30 am now! wake up!"

A familiar voice said to me but i was to lazy to get up...

"Wake uuuuuuuuuuuup~"

"Oooo-oooh~~ ! Can't i sleep a little longer?" I mumbled out

"Yeah sure you can but first tell me when your school starts today?!"

"8:30"

"You know it takes more then 45 minutes from here to your school? and it's already 06:33 am! So better wake up!!!"

"Eeeeee-eeeeh~!? Really?! Why didn't you tell me that?!" I screamed as i rushed to the restroom... Which in my home is a restroom in Nimura-kuns apartment it is the kitchen... So epic fail for me this morning ^-^

"What are you doing? Here i'll go pic your school uniform!"

"eee-eeh? Did you wash my school unifrom?"

"Yeah... I saw it was dirty and i was going to wash mine to so i took yours too... Sorry for not asking you... but here!"

Why are you so kind to me Nimura-kun? Don't you know i'm just gonna hurt you? Who ever is kind to me.. I'll always end up hurting them... after all they've done to me!

"I'm so sorry for bothering you... you are so kind!"  Nimura-kun just smiled at me at my comment...

"Breakfast is done... Come let's go eat!" She said to me and smiled... Did she wait for me to wake up and eat together?...Why so kind?



                                                *Normal pov*

After Kisaki and Sakura was done with there breakfast they got out from the old apartment and walked down the street, untill they came to the crossroad...

"Nimura-kun! Arigato for today and yesterday! ja ne! and don't come late to music school!" Sakura said and waved to Kisaki and runned to the train station while Kisaki would only walk her way alone to school...



                                               *Nimura Kisaki's pov*

Why? Sooner or later I'll leave Tokyo... But why do i make friends now? How ridicilous am i? Why?
You shouldn't have come in to my life Sakura-chan...

                                           *At school (Kisaki)*


"Hey! Mura-kun~ You know today is my birthday~" Shota said and jumped on my back as i took his legs not to make him fall down.

"Oh~Really?!  Happy birthday then! I don't have a present but what you say i'm going to do for you!! I said and he laughed
"Everything i want?"
"not everything of cours, but at least what i am able to do" Then from nowhere Shota kissed my cheek...
"Eeee-eeeh?" I was speechless and then he just said
"Sorry!" and he jumped off of my back and ran away...

"Woow~ Nimura Kisaki got a kiss from cute Kazuki Shota! How could a loser like you get a kiss from him?" that one girl that i really do hate said and walked away.

what have i done!?!?


                                      * Misaki Sakura's pov*
"Are you daydreaming Rura-chan? Why you look so so happy but at the same time so so sad?" Katori-sensei said and smiled to me...
"Ah~ Nothing... I'm sorry" I said and walked away~

What is this feeling? I just want to go back to Nimura-kuns home and wait for her to come home and do something for her... I want to... want to... Be by her side....


                                 

                                       *4 years before at Midori music school academy*

"I thank you all for chosing our music school and hope you have 4 wonderful years~ Even though this isn't a real school with maths and so on But still i hope you have fun here and learn much!" the principal said and bowed

"Please Piano student's follow me to your classroom's" Sakamoto Miyuki 2nd year student in piano
"Please Song student's follow me to your classroom's" Yutaka Yui 2nd year student in song

"ummm... You... dropped this" Little Takashima Sachiko Said to her New Senpai Sakamoto Miyuki and gave Miyuki her necklace that she dropped.

"Oh~ Thank you! This one is really important to me! Where did you find it? I didn't even noticed that i dropped it!" Miyuki said and smiled bright
"You're welcome... you walked and then it just fell off your neck and my brother always says "If you see someone droppe some thing and don't recognize call there name or if you don't know say "Hey you, you dropped something" and take it up and run to them..." Little Sachiko said and Miyuki just smiled and said...

"You are a really sweet girl you know? From now on if you have a problem just say to me and i'll help you as much as i can!" Miyuki said and pat little Sachiko's head.

But there was another little girl in the other side of the school... Her name is "Sonoda Omi" a Little girl who is one of the new students in song and have Yutaka Yui as her Senpai. At first the school wouldn't take her because she is a weak child... She could be easly sick and had sometimes problem with how to breath... But she have the motto " Live for today and tomorrow! Smile away the pain and fight to your death!" and she want to enjoy the things she loves the most...

                                           *The staff room*

"Eee-eeh~ Sonoda Omi? It stands on here that she had weak heart since she was born and actually shouldn't even survive... Why is she in the list?" Hirahara Kumiko-sensei said and looked worried

"She said she wanted "I want to do my best with the last years i have in my life! So please let me... At least try?" Then she began to sing and well... We got suprised how good she sings" Kouyou Kiyoshi-sensei said and smiled.

"She really don't want to waste time on this earth right? I think she will go far..." Kumiko-sensei said and looked at Kiyoshi-sensei

"Yeah! I'm quite sure she will be able to be one of the best in this school... If she just can be a beautiful flower..." Kiyoshi-sensei said and looked out the window... The cherry blossom falled down on the ground but got picked up by the wind a flew away...

"If she? I'm sure she can do it... I have the feeling that she can do it... But for me the question is... How much time does she have? And what she gonna do with it?" Kumiko-sensei said and drank alittle bit of her coffee and sigh.


                                      *With Yutaka Yui*

"The white ball at rest, The petals which have been scattered by the wind, The invisible river which carries both, Singing while flowing on..." Sonoda Omi stopped and everyone was clapping...

"Wooow~ That Awsome you voice is so sweet!" Yutaka Yui and other song students said and gave her a hug 

"Thank you... I just really love this song... I feel so warm and happy when i listening or sing it... " Little Omi said and blushed all red

"Ummm... Oii... Yui-san can you come here for a second please?" There he was one of the most hottes and greates singer in the school and yes of cours he is one of the few guys who sings while others play bass or guitar.

"Eeeee-eeeh~ Yeah sure" Yui walked over to Sakai Shin
"It's about Sonoda Omi right? I know if it is about that... I gonna take really good care of her!" Yui said and was going to turn away and walk to the others again when shin grabbed her hand and said.

"That is not all... I just wanted to ask you... Will you go out with me?" Shin looked down and Yui made a sad face and said

" You don't know right? That i like girls... I'm lesbian... I'm tired of guys now... I'm done... I'm sorry i know you are a good guy... But now i have someone who i really like, I don't want to hurt you..." Yui walked away and Shin just breaked into pisces.

"Why? WHY DON'T YOU LIKE ME?!?!" Shin screamed out and everyone turned around to look what was happening

"Sakai-san Please-" Yui got cutted off by Shin when he screamed once again

"YOU DON'T LIKE ME RIGHT?! I'M GOING TO KILL THE PERSON YOU LIKE!!  I LIKE YOU!! WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND!?! AM I SO BAD?! CAN'T YOU LOVE ME?! "

Everyone was in silence the air changed and everything went uncomfortable...

" Because i already have someone who owns my heart... I can't go love others when i have someone i truly love... I know one day... You'll be able to find the one who loves you because WHO you are and not WHAT you are but maybe now it isn't time for you yet... But now please calm down you are scearing the new students..." Yui said and started to walk away...

Sakai shin stood there speechless... He couldn't do anything...




                                  *Shirakawa Akane's pov*

"This four years with you will end soon... Why? Why do you need to be so foolish? Why can't you see how i really do feel? I wonder if you one day will understand and accept it... I don't care of anyone else in this world if you just can accept me... Please stop beging so foolish...." I thought to myself when i heard a voice say

" Dreams always seem far away they feel out of your reach pick up one of the stones at your feet and throw it with all your might! Do you like this song Anne-chan? I really really like Akb48s songs~ and River the most~"Ayaka Midori said and looked at me. 


"Why this girl of all the girl in the world? She is really something strange in a bad way... She is always using her moms name when  she want something and can't get it. Before she even tried to have... oh no... I'm not going to think more about that... That's disgusting... Even i like girls but her... no thank you... For 100000000 or how much money she will give me... No thank you... I've been lying that i have a boyfriend but she said "I don't believe you! You don't have a boyfriend or neither had one! don't lie to me!"  I thought... 


" Well... Hmmm... Akb48? yeah i like them but-" I got cuted off by her again!
"Oh~We like the same things~! We are like made for each other! I've got a beautiful voice and you are a TALENT in playing piano~ I want us sometimes to collabe together! Can we?" She said and smiled at me with her smile which tells that she wants to say "If you say no you really have trouble!" 


" I like Akb48 BUT it's still not my style... I would like to play songs from Hayao Miyazaki like inochi no namea or something lik-" I got cuted again!! What's with this girl!?!? 


" I can sing it! Even i haven't heard it but i can sing it i'm really sure!" She yelled out and the whole class turned around and looked at us and then turned around and whispered like "oh she can't even sing (Which is true) and she says she can" and etc. 


"I don't think you will be able to sing it~ Not rude or mean or anything but this song is with alot of understanding and it is hard so no thank you... I would like to have someone in my level-" Cutted off again! 


"In your level?! You think i'm not good enough for you?!? What do you mean with that?! I got talent of singing! What is your level then?!" 


"I don't want a Kohai to collabe with me-" 


"Suzuki Ruka is an 2nd years students why could she sing with you?! I'm just one year younger then you! Why can't you understand that?!? I'm the one who desreves you! I'm the one who should own you heart!! Why can't you understand a thing?!? Baka Anne-chan" 


*bang*


"Ee-eeh? Why... Why did you slap me in the face?!?" 


"First of Midori Ayaka My name is NOT Anne I don't like that name... I think it doesn't suit me and as far as i know you are my Kohai no matter what, you should show me some respect and use my last name or real name and end it with Senpai not chan, I'm your Senpai and you can't just come in here and then scream and say you want that and bla bla bla... You can sing but you are just like a normal person not good but not bad."


"You hate me dont yo-" 

"Stop yelling! If i hate you then it is because you alwaya cutting me off! I have never end a word since the first time i talked to you untill now~  and! Love! you can't say you own someones heart! even if we get together you'll just own my body but heart? No! Why can't you understand that?! how foolish can you be?!" 

Midori Ayaka got shocked and started to cry
I didn't want to make her cry but she cried and ran out... 

"Wasn't you to hard to her? Akane-chan?" The girl from back then... Sonoda Omi
"Omi-chan,,, I don't know... how about you? Don't push yourself to far... Okay?"
"Haha! Akane-chan no i won't, I'll just do as much as i can!" Omi said and smiled to me her fake smile...
"Omi.... I really mean it... Don't push yourself to far..." I looked deep in Omi's eyes but she avoid me...
"I know, I know..." Omi said and walked away out of the classroom...

Shirakawa Akane

Nimura Kisaki

Takashima Sachiko

Misaki Sakura

               

Alice Nine Swtiches To New Label NAYUTAWAVE RECORDS

"Alice Nine Swtiches To New Label NAYUTAWAVE RECORDS

Alice Nine has switched labels, transferring from Tokuma Japan Communications to NAYUTAWAVE RECORDS.

The announcement was made during the first night of the band's tour "Alice Nine Live Tour 2012 Court of '9' #2".

In addition to switching labels, Alice Nine informed fans that they will be holding a special countdown live performance on December 31st at Yoyogi National Stadium Second Gymnasium to bring in the new year.

"We want to enjoy an even better view together with all our fans," vocalist Shou told the crowd.

Tickets for the countdown live will go on sale October 27th." 

I found this news on facebook and... *-* I have no words!

One Summer's day 2: Why do you care?

                                 One Summer's day: 2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rzXALkjsyoM&feature=related

"You know Sakura-chan... That where ever you are, who ever you love, how ever you chose your own path, are in love with a girl or boy... Where ever you are... I'll watch over you forever... I love you!

                                                            // Mom

                                Why do you care?

                                        * Nimura Kisaki's pov* 

I walked along the way to home after the concert... When i stoped at the park... I heard someone cry and wonder who it is.

I walked in to the park and saw a girl sitting there all alone crying... I don't know why but... I walked over to her and gave her my tissue and asked 

"Are you okay?" She looked up and i realise it was Misaki Sakura... 

"Why do you care?" she said and looked at me with a weird look 

"I don't know but.. Here... Take this and wipe away your tears... you look awful now you know that?" I said and we started to laugh... 

"You've got a beautiful smile you know that Misaki-san? You should smile more" I said when Sakura took the tissue that i just gave to her

"Really? But anyway's.... Why are you still kind to me when i was rude to you earlier this day?" Sakura asked me and i looked up to the blue sky

"Well... My mom told me once... "Just because the person is rude or mean doesn't mean everytime that they are bad... Some may do it because they are sceard... Sceard for reality..." So i thought you was maybe sceard that i would take all the attention from you..." 

The cloud started to look grey... the sky started to be black... 

"Oh... I-I-I Wasn't sceard about that you would take away all the attention from me! I-i-i-i just... just..." and her voices faded away...

"You just?... You don't need to say anything now... But why are you sitting here all alone and crying?" 

She looked at me and smiled 

" Because... There was one person who said to me... "I want you to... Chose your own path... Can you do that? not for me... But for you! So you'll never regret something..." she knew the answer is "no" still she ask me... "

Sakura looked down 

I looked at her then smiled and said

"But isn't it true? To chose your own path? and go that way? But at least... If it is a wrong way to chose... like killing, taking drugs and so on... Then don't chose that way from the beginging... But well... In our life we can still change our life to soemthing better... " She looked at me and punshed me playful and said 

"I'm not going on drugs your fool!" 

"And i haven't said that either!" We both started to laugh again... but the  silence came back again... 

" But you know... That in our life... there is one time when someone just came in and change everything... In what way i don't know... But... When you make a desicion... After that... don't regret about it... Just make the good of the desicion" I said and the rain started to fall down on the ground slowly... 

"Oii... It starts to rain... Come let's go home!" I said and took Sakuras hand and she took mine and we started to walk away... 

"My way home is the oppsite way... Nimura-kun..." Sakura said to me... and i laughed 

"Ooo-ooh! Really?! Sorry for taking you the wrong way!!" I said and bowed... 

"Haha! No it's okay! Thank you for today and sorry for what i've said to you today... and thanks for the tissue... I'll get a new one for you!" Sakura said and smiled to me.

"No! It's okay! and about playing piano... I know i did some mistake... But i did all my best that is why i was proud that for once i did something with all my heart and soul! and the tiseu it is okay! I've got more back home!" 

"Oh! Okay... But anyways! Thank you very much!" Sakura said to me and started to walk away... I turned around and looked at the road and turned back and said 

"What school are you in now?!" I yelled to Sakura who turned her back and anwser

" Hana Mori Girls only school at Shinjuku! How about you?" She waved to me and smiled

" Sakura saki High school at Shibuya~!" I said and waved back to her. She turned around and started to walk away... I turned around again and the traffic light turned green and started to cross the street with other millions peoples...

"Hana Mori Girls Only school... at Shinjuku?... Wooow~ She've got to be rich to go at a private girl's only school... " I said while i ran home. The rain started to fall more and the weather looked really bad.

I enter the door to the little dark apartment...

"I'm home...."

But there is no one to come back home too... There is no one who will answer me with a smile and say "Welcome home Kisaki-chan! How was your day? Are you hungry?" And i'll answer back "My day was great! And i'm soo soo hungry! what for dinner?"... But there is no one for me to say like that and answer me like that... I'm going to sleep awhile before i go to my part time job...

                    

                                      *Misaki Sakura's pov*


... Nimura-kun... Why are you so kind? Please don't be kind to me... I'll just lose you too... as i lost my other friend's... Don't be this kind to me.. please...

"I'm home..."

"Welcome home Sakura-san! How was your day? and Mrs.Misaki-san  wants to talk to you!"

"I don't feel like talking to that bitch..."
I HATE when the maid is standing there and saying "Welcome home!" with a fake smile on there face!
I don't want someone to say welcome home to me! If they don't mean it! then i don't want to!! And what does that bitch want from me again?! What does she want now?! Me to be the "Perfect child"?!? I've done everything she wanted... Just because i love my mom.... But why... It is better if she just go kill herself!

I ran up the stares and in to my room when i saw Yumeko sit on my bed.

"What do you want?!?" I yelled at her

"I'm your mom show some respect!" She replied that simpel?!? She've got to kidding with me!?

"And?! What do you want form me!? Why are you here?!?" Now she better reply better then what she did before!

"You'll need to move out for awhile... Can you take car of yourself? I've already got a place for you to live in! It is near to Shinjuku so you'll be alright with the school... and about food and stuff like that.. I'll send you money at the begining and end of the month... " I stood there shocked did she say.... I gonna move out?!?

"Why most i move out?!?!!? What have i done?!?!?" I screamed at her and began to cry....

"Don't cry dear... Your stepfather is coming home and-" I cutted her off

"Because you love your new man more then dad?!? Why aren't you sad!? It had just past 1 years since dad died and you already are married! and what?!? yeah sure I'll move out! I'm big enough to take care of myslef yeah! good!"

I ran out of the room and the house... I didn't know what i should do... Why don't she care about me anymore?! What have happend to her?!

I didn't know where i should go... I've run in 3 hours now... it starts to get dark... and
 "How the Hell did i end up at Kabuki-cho?!?!" I screamed out and some hostess started to laugh abit...

"Eeee-eeeh~ What do a little Hana Mori girl do here at shinjuku?" A drunk man said...
"Oiii~you guys don't you see that the girl is sceard?! Back off!" a Long tall man said and smiled at me
"Oii~ Little Hana Mori girl are you okay?"

"I'm not little! I'm 17! and next, next month is my birthday so i'll be 18!" I looked at him angry and he just laughed...

"Ahahahaaa~ Sorry sorry! I forgot! Hana Mori girls only school is a High school! Sorry! But what are you doing here are alone?" The guy who is taller then me... I guess he is a host... So he better not say "come to my club where i work!"

"It's okay... And... I'm just walking around... You are a host right?" I asked him and he laughed

"Ok! Walking around sounds weird! and yes i am a host! and no! I won't say come to my club because i still think you are to young! and you are young! So don't get sceard! Oh and by the way I'm Misaki!" He said and did a quick bow

"Oh! Did you read my mind? Misaki? My last name is Misaki... Nice to meet you! But what is your real name?" He laughed

"NO! But the face you did told me everything! So your name is Misaki Sakura right? Nice name! My real name? You know the rules for host and hostess right? Not to tell your real name so i'm not gonna tell!" he punshed me a softly punsh

"Eeee-eeeh?!? What are you doing here Sakura-chan?!" A girl in maid dress came to me and asked.. Isn't it..

"Nimura-kun?!?! Why are you here? and wearing a maid dress?!?"

"Aaaa-aaah~ Saki-chan! You know her?" The host said and hugged Nimura-kun tight

"She is a friend from the music academy i are attending now!" Nimura-kun said and smiled at me.

"Yeah.. But do you two know each other?" I asked while the host gave Nimura-kun a quick kiss on her cheek and Nimura-kun got all red... I don't know why but i got jealous at the host...  and then the host waved to me and said bye to both of us.

"He is one of my friend since i was a child! still he is my senior... or he was my senior! but what are you doing here?" I looked down and said

"My mom doesn't love me... She love her new husband more then me... She wanted me to move out.. she have  place for me to live! It is somewhere near my school..."

"Eeee-eeh?! No way! Every parent's love there child! and no matter what she is still your mom! Where are you going now then? Have you a place to sleep tonight?" Nimura-kun... Don't touch me... Please!! I don't know why my heart beat this fast when you touch me!

"I don't know..." I answer her and looked down...

"09:30 pm..." she said and looked at me

"eee-eeh?"

"09:30pm is when i end my job... can you wait in 45 minutes? then you can sleep over at my place! If you don't mind of cours!"  Nimura-kun smiled at me...

"Yeah! i can wait! I don't mind! but it is okay with your parents?"
When i said "Parents" Nimura-kun looked so sad...

"My mom and dad died in an car accident three years ago... So i don't have someone at my home... My aunt live in Osaka but yet sometimes she comes to tokyo to visit me and see if i'm fine..."

"Oo-ooh... I'm sorry for asking... and that is sad... So you live all alone now?"

"Before i had one person who lived with me... But now he is to busy to come home... to be with me... to care about me... So now i live all alone..."
If anyone could see her face now... they should understand that she is really sad...


"But well! I better go to my job now! See ya later!" and then i just looked at Nimura-kuns back fade away slowly at this one moment... I thought "It isn't only me who have been throw pain... Everyone have... and Nimura-kun got it more then me... but she still can laugh and have fun... But i guess deep in her heart she is crying... Even she wasn't the best at playing piano... she was loved all the time by others around her..."



                                          *Misaki Yumeko's pov*

 "Oooo-oooh~ Where is Sakura?! Go find her!!"
"Yes Miskai-san!"


 Why don't she understand that i want to protect her from my new husband?! I love her more then my own life! I did anything to give her the best life! so she would not need to have a hard life!
 Why don't she understand?!? I'm her mom... Of cours i gonna love her... She is everything for me... But you know... You and me are the same... We don't like to show how we really do feel... Not that i don't feel sad... The feeling i have is like i've been in hell...

                            I love you and always gonna love you Sakura-chan... Love you from Momi! <3

Nimura kisaki

Misaki Sakura

Misaki Yumeko

Happy Brithday Jin!

Happy Birthday Jin from ScReW May you have a really great birthday!! xD

Nawwww~~ Cute isn't he?!? xD




                    Greetings form Sweden! xD

                                                               // Nishimura Kenichi

One summer's day 1: When we first met

                                 One Summer's day: 1              

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1ni1sVCgEk        

The piano music started to play loudly in the music hall...

"One summer's day when we first met... Do you remember? Sakura? When we first met? I tought you where someone, someone like me never could reach. Someone like you only looked down at someone like me...
Someone I never thought would even care about me... Nee Sakura-chan... Do you know? that I love you <3 "

                                               When we first met...

                                                            *Nimura Kisaki's pov~*

The piano music started to play loud in the music hall...This was my first time in my life that i was going to play at a piano concert... I was always the one who never would be choosed to play at a concert to the music school I'm playing in now.
"There is no reason for someone like you to play at this kind of concert! You'll better train 10 times better then what you do now!" My whole world broke into pieces... My dream got destroyd... My life went dark just because of those word's... Isn't it funny how one persons word could change your whole life?
Thinking back about that... It make's me laugh... Ridiculous isn't it? To listening to someone who dosen't mean anything to you.

"Next person who'll play is Nimura Kisaki, Third year's student with the song "One Summer's day" composer Joe Hisaishi!" and from the backstage i heard nothing but silence... Other third years student had already played here before maybe one or 6 time's... But i've never played here before... I tought "Now it is my time to shine!" I  walked up on the stage and sat down infront of the piano.

It was silence for a few second's... Then i started to play... Slowly... Slowly... Started to play... After those word it had been over 1 year now. In one year, I've grown up more then when i was at that time.
I played more louder and louder... and played how i felt...  and how much i've trained the last years that have passed... Those years isn't worthless or anything...
Those year was beauituful...When i was done everyone was clapping to me and said i had improved myslef after this three year's at this accademy.

But then... You came in... and said to me...
 "So pathetic you are! You made alot of mistake in the song! Still you are proud because of it?!"
You the one who didn't know how hard I tried to do my best, The one who didn't understand me who is a third year student but never did get the chance to stand on the stage, The one who didn't know that i've lost my 3 year's and only have one year left to show what i can do.

 "Oii~ Sakura-chan! Even Kisaki-kun did made some mistake dosen't mean you can just go and say like that!"

Fourth year's student Shirakawa Akane-senpai... She is one of the most best person in this earth that i know! She is awsome at playing piano... Still she have her dark little secret... When i first met Akane-senpai... I showed how easy pushed down i was, I never really did understand something back then... But nowdays... I always look at Akane-senpai... and she understand what i am telling her from my eyes... "If you need a shoulder Akane-senpai... I'll be there for you!"

"But!-" The girl who named Sakura got cutted off by her own teacher Sora-sensei. An Actually fun and weird teacher.
"Sakura-chan! Don't think that you are the best and you can say whatever you want to other people!" Sora-sensei said while smiling.

Sakura turned back and ran away from everyone. I tought... "Now i've got someone who hates me... Great!"



                                                                 *Misaki Sakura's pov*

" Aaaaaaa~~ I want to scream out! What is the problem of people nowdays!? Why are that shit loved by everyone?!? At least all of the student here! Aaaaa~!"

"Because she is a nice person! She try very much at playing piano, which made everyone support her... And who ever want some help in one or two ways... She is always there to help people... Unlike you who are talanted, rich, young and selfish. Everyone admirs you... But no one likes you! I've got to agree that sometimes you are really playing on my nervs!"

"Sachiko-senpai? Do you really mean that?!" I looked at Sachiko-senpai who just smiled at me.

"Yeah I really mean that! But you know... Sakura-chan... When i first met you.. You was all cold and private to everything and everyone... So at that time i tought like " Damn! Hopefully I won't be this cold girl's Senpai!" But then when the prinicpal said "Takashima  Sachiko-san you'll be Misaki Sakura-san senpai! Take care of her from now on!!"you looked at me cold as i tought you would look at me...  and you know what?... when i first heard you play piano... I got amazed how you moved your fingers so grateful... It looked like you where a pro... But unlike other's senpais and Kohai... We both where diffrent from other's.. because you never let me in and you never wanted help from me in any way... You played and learned piano all alone...You just let me watch..."

"S-sachiko... senpai?" I Looked at Sachiko-senpai and saw some tears falling down slowly from her eye down to her cheek...

"But you know what?... For me... When i knew i would be someone's senpai... I was happy... Even tought it was you! I as thinking that we should have some fun together at least! I wanted you to at least sometimes go ask me... Whatever you wanted! It don't need to be about piano... Just whatever you wanted to ask... Everything would be fine if you just asked me... just something... for once... and when you let me in... I was so so happy... That no words in this world could ever never describe how happy i was... But unlike Akane and Kisaki who just had all fun... Even sometime's they get annyoing... but... From the first... Both of them was loved by every student one here.... "  Sachiko-senpai started to cry harder and I could just watch her...

"Ooo-ooh... I'm Sorry Sachiko-senpai... I haven't done something to you at all... and this is your last year here... " For the first time in my life i really said something i really do mean...

" Oh! no it's okay! I'm just happy to see you play piano... But before i graduate... Could you do one thing for me?... Sakura?"

For the first time in my life... This is the first time in my life that Sachiko-senpai asked me to do anything for just HER and ONLY her.

"Yeah! Sure! I'll try to do my best S-sachiko-senpai!"

"Eee-eh?! Why are you crying?!? Did i say something wrong?!"

"N-n-no! It is just! Now... When i saw you cry! I understand how much pain and loneliness i've gave you! So now i want to try my best for you! Sachiko-senpaiiii~~" Sachiko-senpai was holding my hand and i hugged it so thightly as i can...

"I want you to... Chose your own path... Can you do that? not for me... But for you! So you'll never regret something... Can you?" Sachiko-senpai looked at me.. and she wasn't joking about that...

"No.. No! I can't! You know that why do you still ask?! I hate you!" I ran away from the music hall and i know every step that i am taking now... I'll regret them ALL... Because everything that Sachiko-senpai said was ALL true.. I follow my parents... But never followed my heart... I'm runing away from someone that is caring about me more then i care about myself!...


                                                            *Takashima Sachiko's pov*

"Oooo-ooh!! What have i done again?!? Why did i ask like that when i knew she would get mad at me?! Aaaa-aah~ Why am i so stupid?!"

"Because you are Takashima Sachiko the person who never understand what other people thinks and feel! "

"A-Akane-chan?" I turned around and saw Akane come close to me... and hugged me thightly... I felt really really like a child who just lost her favorite doll somewhere and can't find it... I started to cry even harder when Akane pulled me back softly and said

" Nee... Hiko-chan! You may hurt Sakura-chan but don't you think now she will understand... Just abit more? Even in some cases where the person don't understand each other's feelings still can't understand each other?
There is somewhere in her life that she will find the answer to herself... What she want, What she need's and what she still gonna learn from others... Right? So i guess you opend up her eye's even a little bit!..."

"Akane... Why did you get Kisaki and not Sakura? You're both great at piano... You can't fool me! I know the teacher wanted you and Sakura me and Kisaki! I've heard everything after that day! Why?" I looked at Akane who looked away and smiled.

"Because... She is like me before... Closed everything and everybody from me... I didn't let someone in... and i knew if i was with her she would never open up... But i was thinking... If you could open me up.. Then why can't you open Sakura-chan up to? "

"Isn't what you do unfair to Kisaki? " Akane just laughed at my comment and said

"She is special in her own way... Kisaki... She have something that most people here doesn't have... But i can't put a finger on what...
But you know... Hiko-chan... Before we graduate next year... I'll let you know one thing i wanted to tell you half of the time we have known each other... "

"Ooo-oh! Okay! But I think Kisaki is a really... Really... I don't know what to say about her either... And what do you want to tell  me?? Can't i know it now?"

"Haha! Yeah! I know! She is... Ugh... I don't know what to say about her! And i won't tell you... yet...
 But anyways! What university will you attend? Me myself is thinking about Tokai... My currently school say if i work more harder I'll past the entrance test quite well... What about you? Hiko-chan?"

"Oh! if you don't want to tell me now... Then okay... Todai? Everyone else here is all thinking about you go to SeiRai, because you have such a talent... I was thinking about Tomo Gakusen... But i don't know if i'm going to past the entrance... Why do you want to go to Tokai? Akane?"

"Because... This is the path that i've chosed... Why i learned to play piano was because i thought it sounds so beautiful yet i still think so... But... To be famous because of playing piano... Isn't really my dream.. To just play piano is fun...
That is why i wanted you to have Sakura-chan as Kohai... I wanted you to learn her how to chose your own path... and i still believe you can do it! "

"A-akane..." I couldn't talk anymore... Akane stood up and started to walk away... as i was sitting there and couldn't do anything...

I walked up to the piano and started to play on it... "It's only a fairytale"   There was once before that I've been chosed to play this song while one of the song students was singing it... Everyone thought it was such a beautiful harmony... But we two understood that we failed... About the meaning of this song... Even thought we said "thank you" to everyone... That girl always smiled... But now she haven't smile at all... Everyone is expecting much from her as much as everyone is too Akane about her playing piano... Both of them have been on stage together...

Why am i such and loser?


      

                      End of chapter 1 of "One summer's day" When we first met 

Shirakawa Akane Fourth and last year's student

Takashima Sachiko Fourth and last year's student

Misaki Sakura third year's student

Nimura Kisaki third year's student