Fake smile...

I hiding behind someones else back all the time...
I just want to disappear behind my fake smile...
It hurt when you fake smile...and then say..."Everything is okay with me..."...Most people say that.."Just think positiv and the world will see much brighter then what it is now!..."
But...in my world...how much positiv i am...i doesn't help me...am i lost?...
"Only the strongest survive...!"...The weak people doesn't deserve love...don't think so..!
Everyone deserve love...Don't thing that only the strongest and lucky one Deserve LOVE...
Love hurt...it's painful to even thing...only one thing i know is...i don't want to go in someones else way!....
I want to find my own way! Go in that way and be proud that i find my own way!